This one's for you...

There were days when I didn’t understand you…
Felt like I don’t know you…
You may have felt the same way;
But you always thought the best for me.

My life has found a definition-
Thanks to your lone and nurturing.
I was like a potter’s clay-
Ready to be molded
Wherever the forces of life took me.
But you stood like the deep rooted tree
Sheltering me…
And anchoring me-
To life’s realities.
With you I began to see life in a whole new light.

Ma,you have always been the torch-bearer
And believe you me, so you shall always be,
Forever and for always…

Midnight conversation

Raag kore na raaguni

mukh kore na beguni

bus asbe ekhuni

chhut te hobe tokhuni

bus er pichhon pichhone

ki shunte se ki shone

bus er gaye kathal fol

tar nei pa dani nei hatol

kole tomai nilo na

jaiga to r chhilo na

tai bole ki ragte hoi?

dhoirjo dhore thakte hoi!!!


- Shankha Ghosh
Courtesy: Samata Biswas

Wandering wonderment

I sit and watch as the tiny ripples of water flow past me
it is like time flowing past you
i have somewhere to go
but my mind refuses take my body
anywhere ... no where.
It is a beautiful day
the smell of newly washed leaves
the strong breeze that brings it towards me.
I am enraptured
carried away to the other me
the me who wants to be a nobody
the me who does not want to leave the gentle assurance of the mother's voice.

I woke up with a warmth on my cheek
i haven't been woken up such for a long time
always rubbing the sleep from my eyes
hurrying to wherever my feet took me.

My heart warmed up
and a weird pain crept into me
happiness was short lived
i knew this will go too
there is something so volatile so powerful
i could never hold on to it.
Every time that soft end of the sari
just slipped between my fingers.

I am just left wondering
will i ever get back those days...

Let Me Be ME...

(This poem was written some years back... in a mood I cannot recollect... suddenly stumbled upon it... felt like sharing with the world... May not make sense to some... Don't worry, so it is with me :D )

I’ve read of people going to places
Leading a life of a bohemian
Seeing the world…
Not through books
(As I do)
But by being there themselves.
I wanna see the world
I wanna know its people.
Yet I’m held back…
The unknown devil’s fear holds me back.

I took one bold step
Those around me revolted.
I gave up,
For I put them first.
I am sick of it,
Something, that gives me nothing.
They corner you
They overpower you
They know you from childhood…
They make you regret
That you ever dreamt of being YOU.
Too many invisible eyes watch you,
From the dark corners;
Ready to pounce upon you.

I am JUST 19, and yet I’m old enough.
I’m stupid… I trusted a stranger.
How funny…
We say we need families
Family, that teaches you
To stick to the status quo,
Like a primitive man?
Nobody understands
That I just wanna be me!

Stream of Thoughts and Perceptions...

The dogs bark incessantly. There's nobody stopping them. Peels of laughter reach me sailing on a waft of strong brezze. That sail into my room.The papers flutter. Strewn all over the floor. The pink curtain play hide and seek with me. The bird call out for its companion. I want to run out and answer...
Night's revels vanish in a flash. Non-working flush. A curse on someone's lips. The tap drips. The day rolls by. The bed is a better place than anywhere else in the world. The cell alarm beeps. Snooze. Then completely stop. The laptop screen flickers its light at me. Assignments beckon me. I try to run away. Home seems to be a vague luxury. A constant music plays...that runs havoc in my mind...
Music the only retreat away from anywhere...here, there, everywhere.

Jinxed... and still going strong!

You know that there is something terribly wrong when some things refuse to be not repeated in your life.
The MMTS is one such thing. Proven to be the cheapest mode of transport in and around the twin city, the MMTS refuses to give a me chance to avail its opportunities. Three consecutive times I, along with my friends (different groups of friends but with me as the common factor) have missed the MMTS. The important point to be noted is that, everytime, we miss it just when the train is whistling into the other platform and we are standing on the other platform in front of the ticket counter...
Now what do you have to say?
Last time when we missed the train and then had to burn a hole in our pockets to reach the destined place, one of my seniors said that the next time they decide to take the MMTS and they have me along with them they better turn up half an hour before the scheduled time... and then on second thoughts she added - "May be then the train itself might get cancelled!"

Just When I Thought That Life Was Perfect...

Just when I thought that my life was perfect, BANG came the shock! Bhalla asked me to redo the term paper. I was counting my days to go back home, or atleast be done with my exams, and now I have this on my head.

So when friends were eagerly asking me about my grades, I gave them an equally enthusiastic answer - "Oh I've been asked to rewrite!" - and took the pleasure in watching the smile fade out from people's faces. Well yes, people are kind to each other in such situations... you never know when disaster may strike you too!

Advices come pouring in and so does the abuses... It's like a wrong done against a commune which must be protected at all costs from disaster...

I wonder what's wrong with me....!!!